Emotions have been raging the last few weeks and then I made the mistake of reading my horoscope, which probably applies to 10 million other people, who are all predicted to have a very lousy day. So I just decided to amuse myself with it and move on. I wonder when our society's obssession with horoscopes came about and how many people follow it religiously.
In a world where everyone is seeking answers, what role does a written blurb about our astrogolical sign that applies to millions of people do we follow?
I know, for me, I let the noise in some times in my life and when I do, I have raging emotions. When I feel centred and trust my gut (which is rather large these days), life is much simpler.
The past few months have been a rollercoaster of emotions that have revolved around:
- My job situation - you can change jobs but you are always there. Working with psychotic men has finally caught up with me. And it's quite alright that everyone sees them as psychotic and the havoc they create, but they are still in "power." Maybe I feel guilty that I didn't do anything and now they are afflicting pain on others? The machine keeps running ... so does it really matter? I look around and what do I see? The assholes of the world are still in charge and the world is silent.
- People don't speak out about injustice. The reason is that they look at it, see how ugly it is and simply move on. No one wants to hear or know the truth because it is much easier to ignore it than deal with it.
- People lie all the time and no one calls them on it.
- We all seek happiness and joy and yet we are silent. My generation lives a painful existence of shutting up and putting up. They stay in bad relationships, they delay living their dreams for work and a stupid definition of success, they fear and they follow horoscopes because so many are simply scared of being bold and living and loving out loud.
- We believe we are free and yet we put ourselves in chains. They are called social norms. I remember that class is high school. They are defined as what is right and wrong. It's the barriers and lines that are given to us by the socialization process.
- and as we grow up, I try to rid myself of these chains.
What I am trying to get to now is if I could do anything, what would it be?
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