One Full Week at Home

Breathing is key. I didn't manage this transition and it has been a bit weird. Some people have shown a tremendous amount of passive aggressiveness. And I have to remember that I have done nothing wrong. But I think it's a matter of people feeling that it's not fair that I get to do something I enjoy. Now, what's wrong with that?
EVERYTHING
I had a session with Greg today and what he said resonates with me, "this choice you made is about saving your life." I haven't thought about it like that but he is totally right. I am getting off the roller coaster of having my job as the center of my life. Everything surrounded my trips. I had a revelation on my last flight that there is so much more to life. I am going to travel, in class, for fun. All the addictive elements like mileage programs are irrelevant. They don't matter. I watched some of my colleagues who were in the top Lufthansa club (330,000 miles per year) being obsessed with maintaining their membership because they got all these benefits? But, at what cost? How many days of their lives do they spend away from their families and their life? It's such a twisted concept when you can stop and think about it. And now, it's great because I can stop and think.
I am sorting through a million feelings and what's key, again, is breathing. I have to allow myself to transition and not just throw myself into what's next. It's so important to pace myself and not rush. I have years of exhaustion to get over :-)
Last night at dinner, the first question I was asked was "how is your love life?" My response was "it's the last thing on my mind right now." I've only been back home for a week and half of that time has been super jet lag. I want a community right now; not a relationship. I would like to have more male friends and hopefully, I will make that happen.
Time to get dressed and head to Amy's.