I woke up in a strange mood. I am not sure if it's my PMDD or if I am just winding down. The last 2 weeks have been really fun and so many issues have been resolved so I should be out of my skin celebrating. But last night was a real downer.
I went to another dinner. This time in the city. I had high hopes. I visualized meeting some really nice people; some who I'd enjoy seeing again. That didn't happen. The highlight of my day was the time I spent before this dinner at the Ozumo bar. I got to the city and was starving since I skipped lunch and found myself at my favorite sushi spot. I found a spot at the bar, ordered a Newton Chardonnay, which was amazing, and had my spicy tuna roll, which was heavenly. It wasn't very busy when I got there but filled up by the time I left. I should have just stayed. I was having fun on my own and there was a lot of flirting going on although I ended up next to the lesbian couple. I felt perfectly fine on my own and at one point got caught up in my thoughts about my life. I do need to celebrate the fact that I don't hesitate to be on my own. That is where I am in my life right now. It took me years to realize that I can be self sufficient and that I do not want to have it all.
What I am struggling with what I really want to do.
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