Shingles come back

I am really disappointed. I was going to visit Marilyn today at her home and I woke up feeling awful. Yesterday was bizarre. I had a lot of pain along the nerve and it was also frustrating. I am ready to be better. I want to move forward. I ended up taking an ambien to sleep. I slept but now, I feel awful and I am scared of driving such a long distance in this condition.
Celebrity, Woody Allen's movie is on the background, I am watching a random scene where Judy Davis shows up to ask for sexual advice especially around new techniques. When Bebe Neuwirth asks Judy Davis whether she enjoys giving a blow job, her response is "I think so but I am usually thinking about the Crucifixion." Than Bebe asks her to demonstrate on a banana and almost bites into it. It made me laugh. I am feeling so frustrated right now so a laugh is good.
It's a beautiful Sunday morning and I am just going to crawl back to bed. When will I feel better? When do I get to turn the corner? My back is killing and the stabbing nerve pain is here ... I will need to call the advice nurse later as I can't find anything on the Internet. I was thinking that I was getting better. I don't get it ... maybe the stress of work is related? or maybe it's the fact that my divorce lawyer is so awful. I am so tired of having to chase everyone and keep on top of it all.