Lazy Saturday in Budapest

Saturday, sometime at the Four Seasons in Budapest having breakfast or lunch. Just taking it easy, not fully awake. An older couple in their 60s is grumpy, demanding their food and complaining. Apparently, they have three minutes before they have to leave and want their food. They are complaining to everyone about the awful service. The waiters are paying incredible attention to them. I don't want any of this negative energy any more. The older man in the purple checked shirt is shoving roasted potatoes and beef in his mouth while reviewing the bill in his left hand.
Anyhow, I don't need any drama. I am focusing on the bread, which is amazing. It's so wonderful not to be rushed today. No plans. Just rest and joy for the body and soul.
Last night was really fun. I was supposed to have dinner with Lisa but ended up with another 5 people from the Latin American team who I just love. It was a very fun group of people and I was delighted when Lisa and I decided to leave the first smokey and very pink restaurant that some of the other guys took us to. It's hard to get into a restaurant without a reservation on a Friday night.
I have to start recognizing how truly lucky I am and what I have instead of focusing on qualities and area that I feel lacking.
I think that JD is finally realizing that I am serious and I am done. He is panicking. He is also extremely angry and that is what I am most tired of. He has no concept of my needs or anything beyond him. Realizing that he hasn't meet my needs forced me to take care of them has forced me to take a close look in the mirror and realize that I have a dependent rather than a partner. I am doing a great job of taking care of me.
There are so many tourists outside. I am going to join them when I am done eating. Just start walking and exploring.
I was expecting to fly home from here but we have another fire drill now that will take me to Toronto. On Monday, I will pick up some underwear in Toronto and get my clothes cleaned.
I am the only woman on her own at the restaurant. It's either groups of men or women, couples on their own and couples with their babies. This is a heaven for men who are interested in beautiful Hungarian women who provide a host of services. It's all easily available for the man.
This is the first time in my life that I have been happy on my own and just enjoying my quiet.
The ginger and pumpkin soup was amazing and now, my tuna and avocado sandwich with spicy paprike chips just arrived. So I need to take a break. Savor the flavors and the experience. Am I enjoying food more now that I am not in a rush to appease my over achiever personality or is it just that this food is exceptional?
Existing and not worrying.
When I first looked at the menu, nothing jumped out at me. But I made 2 great choices!
On Thursday night about 100 of us got on three buses to go to a tourist trap. The drive was great with a 40-minute tour of the city. Then, dinner was ok - a bit too heavy and the dancing really bothered me. It didn't feel authentic. At dinner, Sebastian pulled out two photos of his twin 3.5 year old girls. He shared that he was on his "second adminstration" and has two older children from the first administration. I just loved his comments and insights.
Time for a walk.