Pursuing Adventures

Chinese New Year for the Rabbit: Hang out with Pigs and Sheep :-)

Rabbit (1927, 1939, 1951, 1963, 1975, 1987, 1999) 
The creative Rabbit thrives.

Rabbit persons come out of their year of challenge in 2012 and will enjoy opportunities for moving to a new home and traveling. Avoid getting involved in other people's business to prevent falling into a trap and being unfairly blamed. This potential trouble with others can create stress that leads to illness.

Focusing on meditation, health, and peaceful endeavors is key to enjoying 2012. In particular, isolate yourself from relationships with those born in the year of the Rooster, for they could be filled with conflict and love stress. Similar awareness should be exercised with Dragon, Horse, and Rat persons. Traveling and spending time with Pig and Sheep persons brings happy times.

It is a good idea for Rabbits to focus on their health this year. A powerful longevity Chi Art such as Path of Longevity) placed in your bedroom will bestow healing energies upon you. More time exercising and hiking in natural environments will also be beneficial. Honing your culinary skillsand green thumb are opportunities to learn about better nutrition and are therapeutic for your emotional health as well. Filling a piggy bank daily with coins garners energies of saving and keeps money energies close to you. Black, gray, blue, and silver colors are auspicious for Rabbit persons. Onyx, obsidian, lapis, and silver custom-designed bracelets necklaces, and earrings can be worn to boost Rabbit persons’ energies in 2012.

Boundaries

Since I got home, i have been dealing with boundaries and one area I have been thinking a lot about is how I put my needs first. Although I was brought up to help people, I need to help myself first.

Today I woke up in a fog. Last week was hell and I have not caught up on my sleep since I landed in SF at 11 pm on Friday. I am happy to have today off to focus on me.

I am definitely getting rid of people who just take. And I need to learn to go faster since many of these people will take as nuch as they can get.

They have no boundaries for taking so I am putting my own up.

What Maria said on Sept 21, 2011

I had a reading:

• Very first vibration is that you are very intuitive and you are getting more so every minute. You are more than the average individual. With time, you will ipen up even more
• Lots of healing energy. Did you ever want to become a therapist or a doctor? Anything to do with physical, health or emotional health?
• Do you cook? You heal with nourishment
• You will be making a lot, a lot, a lot of changes
• You some times think about moving and it's on your mind to make changes
• The past 15 years has been like a vacation as you are not as productive as you want to be
• There is something Russian or Polish around you. It's very clear in your energy
• I see you living in Israel and you have
• When are you going to write books? Lots of writing. You have a lot to say
• You will release 25 pounds with the release of the book and then another 50
• You need to knock off the sugar; it could be the alochol, bread and pasta
• You have fat genes but it won't be a problem when you get older
• Eat well when you travel because travel is a way of life for you. You move around a lot
• For some reason, I feel you may love and your love life will change
• You haven't had a relationship for a long time. Men cannot fit into a suitcase and that's what it is. You have traveled a lot. There will be a J or G initial. Another guy who reminds me of Tarzan. Dark complexion and dark hair. He is nice and exciting. He is younger than you and very nice. I get an M and B initials. 
• You won't believe it but you will marry again with a wonderful marriage. A very spiritual person. Someone who is around you is interested and you may not know it. There are a few guys here. This one is light. Things are changing with your energy and you will start attracting more people around you
• Do you have a Scorpoio friend? Moved into a new place
• Some with investments and properties
• Do you ever lecture? I see you telling people what to do in talks. I see you speaking, speaking and speaking. telling people what to do
• Do you do it in hotels? Because I see hotels and mainly the corporate world.
• You will get out when you start writing your book and do consulting work. I see you consulting
• You do very well. They like you. You just would do more
• I see something with Washington, DC, which is very nice
• I see Montreal here too. St Jospeh is my most favorite. The energy is amazing
• I see joy, success. You simply made an amazing choice to be happy and you are doing it. You are following something that you don't know. You have Elizabeth, Liza or Liz. And a man with a Russian name like Yigor or Dmitri. Do you have spiritual guides around you?
• I hope you meditate
• Is your father gone? Was he young? He is very much around you. A nice simple. A lot of Taurus-Libra. He is full of smiles and very looking. He smiles a lot to you. He was shocked that he died and he didn't expect it. He is showing me someone named Yossi. He is around a lot. It's interesting how he'd like to develop a relationship now because I don't feel anything strong when he was alive. He is with his mother. He loved her a lot
• You need to live in a big city. An English speaking country. You will have more than one house
• In the next 2 years you will have an amazing relationship, which will determine where you want to be
• Do you ever think of doing your own business? You will do well. The business will bring you a man
• I see a number of men around you. He is a guy. The one I like most is someone who lives here and there. More than one location. He is open and can live where he wants to. He has been through some trauma in his life and he is a big, huge giver. He is really fantastic. You will teach him how to accept and take. He is a fabulous nan
• There is nothing that keeps you in SF other than your friends, There are no ties

 

 

Jet Lag

I have been home since Monday and my clock is still totally screwed up. It's 1:51 am I have been up since midnight. This week is not turning out the way I had hoped.

Ignorance

Her: "2011 was a really terrible year. It has to get better."

Me; "yeah, it was pretty rough and hopefully, we will start seeing some changes."

Her: "You are so lucky you don't have kids. You have no idea how much I worry about their future."

How dare anyone say this to me? It infuriates me. It's not like I made a conscious choice not to have kids. And I worry about the future of billions regardless if they are biologically mine.

I can't stand when people who have kids tell me how lucky I am ... people have no clue what other people feel and go through.

Hormones

I had am amazing massage, an Indian treatment where they poured oil on me and also worked on my "belly." I woke up early, took a walk on the beach and took it all in. It was great since I was alone and went for a long swim and dance in the pool. I felt energized.

My journey from Phuket to Singapore was awful.  I don't know what happened but I was stressed out and even had an issue at immigration. Everything was sour. And I wondered what happened to all that good energy. We even had to circle the airport in terrible turbulence and I had a screaming baby next to me. One of the 5 year old girls had to pee and we were holding. The dad told the mom to get some newspapers under her.  Her mom pulled out a diaper and started stuffing it in the back of her pants and then was trying to put it under her clothes. It wasn't working so she pulled down her underwear and put the darn diaper on. Then the girl held on to her you know what and did you know what. It was absolutely bizarre on a plane full of people in mid air, while her baby brother wailed.

The hotel has been a disaster and I had no idea why everything was so weird all of a sudden.  I started not to feel well and all I wanted was a shower because I also had a sour smell. I won't bore you with the hotel drama although I already tweeted and sent an email to Starwood as a result. I was so frustrated, I didn't go out. I showered and went to bed. Only to wake up with a full blown period. Hormones. And I decided to cut it short and not stay at the resort since I didn't want to be surrounded by families and kids. But in essence, I would have had my period. Mystery solved.  On to have fun with friends.

Time

All we have is time. Take time for you. Invest in knowing yourself and what you want. Move away from what was drilled into your brain about what you are supposed to do.

Create your own rules and never let anyone get in your way. If you keep encountering the same roadblock, bad relationship or stressful work situation then there is a lesson you have yet to learn. Take the precious time, dig deep inside and break the pattern.

There is no destination. Just a series of life lessons. Cherish time and be very present. Focus on what is possible for you.

I have witnessed

Too many men in speedos

Too many man boobs

Too many pedophiles

Openings and Closings

Relationships are fragile and for me, transparency is key with people I am close to. This is about my disappointment with G because I checked my work email while I was on vacation. My bad. I thought writing about it would help me understand my reaction.

I try to treat people as I would like to be treated. But when I feel someone has crossed a line, I shut down. G will have to do a lot to ever regain my trust and friendship. She made a choice that she may believe is in her best interest but it has shut the door with me.

We need to be cognizant of boundaries -- not just our own but those of others.

Sometimes when someone crosses the line, they need to focus on their new destination and leave the past behind.

No one gives us the rule book but with life experience, we should have sufficient common sense to navigate the fragile threads that bind us to each other.

It comes down this: I despise games and value honesty. There is little time for manipulation.

Be straight -- even if it hurts.

Where G went astray is when she asked me if she could interview for another position and made some lame excuses, which I called her on. She was not honest. And by talking about it, she told me that she had already interviewed. I would have supported her but the way she did it hurt.

Her new life awaits her. I understand her rationale but her approach was uninspiring and dishonest. That is the crux of it and I need to get over myself on this issue.

What's next for me? How much longer at the insane asylum that is supporting my chosen lifestyle?

Maybe I need to write a business book first that will fund my lifestyle?

 

My love: the big blue ocean

This is truly a milestone. I am just feeling happy and alive right now. I have shed a lot of the preconceptions i grew up where certain actions were labeled as right or wrong. I don't care.

People can judge and they do but almost everyone battles with their own demons. As i was sitting at the ocean at sunset, i was watching the sand crabs scurry along without having to stop their work for the humans. And they were working at a furious pace. I at quietly watching and thinking about survival.

And what really hit me is that since my divorce, I have gone through this journey where I fully decided that happiness is within reach. And every day, i shed the emotional weight. What's next is taking better care of my vessel and truly being able to get to the next level. It is not enough to work on the spirit, the time has come to tend to ghe body ... After this trip :)

Watching the Newlyweds

Breakfast again. It has not become routine. Went back to reading Aleph and it is very relevant right now:

"we always tend to value what comes from afar, never recognizing the beauty around us."

" i had allowed myself to be slowly poisoned by routine."

Lots of thoughtful reading poolside today.

There are many newlyweds here. One couple who arrived yesterday caught my attention. Today, they arrived with their Kindles and smartphones. They are eating without talking. Each reading their ebooks.

And how funny is it that today I was asked if I was feeling lonely being here on my own. I have learned over the last five years to more and more cherish my alone time. There is also nothing that i feel I am missing by not venturing outside my cocoon. It is why I chose this resort. I needed to go deep inside.

I don't have my answers but i am not sure what the questions were.

Life is Good

I don't need to find myself. I am right here. The waves are crashing across the shore and i am sitting like a princess under an enormous tree taking it all in. I feel at peace. I am not sure what transformation i was expecting to occur in Thailand.

I feel rested and energized. I find it funny that i am the only single guest at The Naka Island. The staff have stopped putting two place settings down for me and some are getting used to me. There was a new guy at the beach who wanted to set a towel on the second beach chair. The world is still programmed for couples. And i feel so good in my own skin.

Being a couple does not always make you happy. I was watching strained silences at the breakfast table.

There is no manual and so many people fall into the trap of what is expected of them. I watched a single woman last week turning on the charm around single men. It was important for her to be recognized and rewarded with flirtations.

Some may argue that i am cyncial. I just am. I don't care about fitting into predetermined boxes. I have spent the past five years smashing them over my head and never looking back.

Pursuit

I skimmed an article this morning that talked about how the key leadership ingredient that is pursuit. I so disagree, which is funny because I do strategy for a living.

Here’s the thing – pursuit leads to attainment. What you pursue will determine the paths you travel, the people you associate with, the character you develop, and ultimately, what you do or don’t achieve. Having a mindset focused on pursuit is so critical to leadership that lacking this one quality can sentence you to mediocrity or even obsolescence. The manner, method, and motivation behind any pursuit is what sets truly great leaders apart from the masses. If you want to become a great leader, become a great pursuer.

I was just having a splash in the pool and it hit me that we are too obsessed with goals and what's next. I forced myself to swim and run without thinking about how long it was or which end i would need to reach or how many laps did I swim. Goals are important but not as a way to live every day. They are good for a direction but the obsession with achievement is what i want to shed and leave behind.

Day #3 in Naka Island - #9 in Vacation

Woke up and feeling lazy. I am surrounded by couples and families, including newlyweds.  I don't think that they are used to having single women show up and want to have a great experience. Hotels miss huge opportunities to cater to the needs of single people. Actually, what they miss most is their ability to create experiences and relationships with their guests as their approach is very transactional.  In reality, they should be seeing every guest as part of their marketing campaign to bring more people to their properties.

But, alas, I am on vacation so I won't even try to solve their problems.

I need to spend the next few days outlining my Ebooks -- The Journey: A Guide for Young Girls and Women; Social Business, The Future of Work and Talent.

I have to get my thoughts around what's next.  Do I get a medical leave? Do I open my own shingle? Do I move cities? I will listen again to my reading with Maria and take note of the key themes that speak to me.  I met the marketing director for this resort yesterday and we had a drink. She asked me whether I would consider moving to Asia. I feel so very lucky that I am blessed with so many options and it is all about following my own beat now.

So off I go to my steam shower, which is outside in the villa. I love the fact that my bedroom is at the center of the villa and is open.  In front of me is my splash pool and two sitting areas.  Behind me is the bathroom, open closet, steam shower, outdoor shower and a huge bath.  I am so fucking lucky and I know it.

On the agenda for today is breakfast, pool, ocean and signing up for some treatments. Life is good.

 

Single in Paradise

Finally pulled myself out of my glorious villa, which was not easy at all. I could not have designed the layout villa better myself and will post some photos when i get back.

Arrived at the outdoor restaurant and my heart melted at sitting outside overlooking the blue ocean. I cannot wait to get in it. On the journey over here, i ran into a number of people on my flights and at airports that I am happy. I am. I feel truly blessed and i am also about to burst. Ther is so much i want to do. I know that i will figure it out and just start doing instead of thinking.

So here I am on Naka Island on my own and I feel so comfortable. They keep putting place settings down for two people; always assuming there is someone attched to me. I look around and it is all couples and families. Some of the men are with Asian women and some of thr women are with Asian men and the world is in harmony. Their children are so beautiful and I so wish for all of us to sinply be.

Sunrise in Phuket

Listening to roosters and birds very early in the morning in Phuket.  The rest of the gang is asleep and they must have had a wild time after I crashed as I found remnants of a drunken night with broken glass.   This is absolutely spectacular.  Not the broken glass but being here for a special friend's birthday.  

Most people spend their lives trying to escape instead of truly being present and available to the moment.  Our heads are filled, from a young age, with the notion that we must have goals and a purpose. Too many people spend their lives looking for themselves, not comrehending that they are right there.  No search required.  Just an ability to open their eyes and minds.

Letting Go of the Past

Too many people are too caught up with where they have come from that they dont realize that they can change their circumstances.  We hold on to too much irrelevant crap

This is a life changing trip because it is my journey.  It is about the now.  I am in the first leg of my trip flight UA 317 from SFO to LAX seat 2K.  I am finally truly enjoying my miles and am very present.  There is a gorgeous guy at the opposite side who keeps glancing over.  A good way to start the trip with eye candy.  I am ready for changing my life and starting to write.  Maria was right. I do have a lot to say and i do want to share.  I remember having this fantasy as a teenager to be a writer.

I did dabble in academic and then business writing.  But it never represented my authentic voice.  I feel a need o help others through my writing.  I just have to do it!

This is the first time in 12 years that i did not take my work computer.  I hope to put work out of my mind and focus on me.  All hat bullshit can wait.o

Life is short

"if you are looking for the love of your life, stop; they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love"

Is this me?

I am not sure why I am doing all this horoscope stuff especially since I have so much I want to write about.  But here goes some more.  My sister sent this to me and it actually gave me chills ...

Happy Birthday, Cancer! Compassionate and idealistic, you’re also an uncompromising optimist who believes there’s always a better way. You refuse to give up on people or concepts you believe in, and may take a lot of heat from cynics that surround you. Your methods differ from standardized procedures, making your career and personal progress somewhat eccentric.

You cannot stand to be dominated, controlled, or minimized by others. You’d rather be alone or go without than grovel at the feet of someone you cannot respect. You may be the black sheep of your family -- or perhaps the most stubborn, persistent one. People have trouble predicting your next moves because, in many ways, you’re an atypical Cancerian.

Although you love your home, family, and traditions, you’re also a free spirit who enjoys roaming the world and freely experiencing new cultures and environments. You are not a wallflower. Free thinking and curious, you’re a global citizen instead of a tiresome collection of boring habits and prejudices. Unafraid of obstacles, you fight valiantly for what you believe is morally just and fair.

Like Don Quixote, you never give up on your ‘impossible’ dream. You will not accept others’ pale excuses. As long as your family and closest friends are safe and secure, you don’t need the approval of others. In fact, you’d much rather have others’ respect than love. Because you are so passionate in your dedication to a belief, relationship, or cause, you make an irresistible salesperson and motivational speaker.

Your words and example move people. Your deep feelings may take a toll on your sensitive digestive system, setting you up for a myriad of stomach and lower tract complaints. Be pristine in the care of your teeth, bones, skin, and hair -- and don’t smoke. . . ever.

July